Saturday, December 8, 2012

A Cup of Morning Tears

Is it okay if today i share a little about what i feel ? Well, actually I'm not in a good condition, but not in a pain too, but..... ah it is too complicated, sometimes i feel happy too much, and sometimes i feel so blue too much.

It is too early morning to be sad, I'm on the roof of my house, sometimes i imagine how it feels when i jump from this place to the ground, it is about 10 meters, will I be okay after that , or worse than before ? No, No, I'm not talking about suicide, how poor if I'm talking about that, i just.... yap, wanna know how it feels.

I miss my dad, i miss my dad when I'm feeling so distracted , close my eyes for a second, and i wish i have moved to the place i love, near my Dad, and horay my dad is staying here beside me, he is listening to my story, his only-undecided-daughter. I'm saying , throwing, flowing everything, everything about what i feel. But unluckily that's not true, my Dad is not here, is not listening to my story :( 

                                                            so what should i do ?


i have chaged to be someone i don't know, this is not me. I never find my self in a little problem and can't solve it alone. Come on ndy, it-is-just-a-little-heart-problem. Well, so how much i have to slap my face to realize that this is not important ? No, it is important, in fact i always think about this :(

                             It is a way too hurt, when you have to smile to the thing you don't love

*silent* *deep breath*

Indeed, I'm in trouble, trouble with my self, i have to let someone go, when actually i know i need him. No, it is not about my boyfriend. It is a way too hurt, and about to scream out loud " DON'T YOU KNOW I NEED YOU! " that's shit -,-

I know, i know, this is not good, not right, "God always has a good plan for you" , sometimes that words are being so mainstream, but i believe in that. 

 If i can't pay this, let the time pay that for me. If i can't solve it then let the God's miracle do the best.

Friday, December 7, 2012

Rainbow Cake in Jars

i know, i know, another rainbow cake, but.... this one is slightly different, maybe ? 
actually that day before i made this cake, i stared at a couple of jars on the table, those were carica ( kind of fruit ) jars. 
Everybody knows that i love sweet, i love make and i love eat them, sweets ! and maybe bake a dessert is my middle name.

Well, First of all, i omitted the label with the cutter ( frankly, lil bit scary -,- ) and you will get a couple of plain jar.

ofe-course you have to prepare what you need to make the rainbow cake, for the receipt you can get it from some sites, but be sure, the site that you follow has a good taste of rainbow cake haha
I used 4 eggs, 6 food colouring, milk, flour, granulated sugar, butter, baking powder, and vanilla powder. Last as the toping i used butter cream and sprinkle candy.

and mixed all the materials, mixed and mixed, mixed this and mixed that. added some colours, and BAKED! 
cut the cake as big as the jar, put them inside, gave some butter cream and last.....

SPRINKLE CANDY made them look so yummy !
that's why i love sweet, sweets, they will always do the best to make everyone happy

Put them inside refrigerator, in plan, i will give this rainbow cake for my special friends, one is for my best friend, she is such a really good listener and great advicer, then the other one i will give it to my best-bully-buddy who gave the caricas for me, indeed, i miss eat a sack of carica like what my father always bought for me.

I always spread my sweetest smile when i eat what i love most, for ex eat carica. I hope that my bestfriends will spread the sweetest smile for me when they eat my rainbow cake in jars. i hope :)))

if there is anything more fun than eating a rainbow cake in a jar then i don't know what is.

Brown Bow Tie